If I Close My Eyes, Will He Disappear???

The answer is no. He will stand in front of the treadmill with a disappointed look on his face.

So, as some of you may have deduced from my lack of blogs posts, I totally jumped off of the gym-diet bandwagon this week. In a bad way. Baaaaaad way. I ate WHATEVER I wanted. I skipped TEAM both Friday AND Monday. I wasn't even sure about tomorrow or Friday (the last two days of this session).

Driving home from work today, I was a little poopy and thought about going home to my house and being poopy. And didn't want to do that. So I thought, I guess I could go to the gym. It may be good to get out some aggression. And it's not TEAM, so if I want to stop, I will. I will do WHATEVER I FEEL LIKE. I happened to have my gym bag in the car, so I went.

I got on the treadmill and walk inclines for 15 minutes, took a 2 minute active recovery break, then began to run. I ended up running for 15 minutes. A few minutes into it, much to my dismay, Zak the Trainer appeared in front of my treadmill with a smart-alec smile on his face. I closed my eyes, but when I opened them, alas, he was still there. The conversation went like this:

Me: Hi, Zak.
ZTT: Where were you Friday and Monday?
Me: I didn't feel like coming.
ZTT: That's a good reason (I am still not sure if he was sarcastic or not).
Me: Well...you didn't call. You didn't even care (I know, I am *such* a girl).
ZTT: I did too care! I sent you an email.
Me: Nah uh.
ZTT: Yes, I did.
Me: I didn't get it.

He then asked why I didn't feel like coming and I explained that I have somehow lost my edge and motivation and I don't necessarily fault them, I think it is me, but I am wasting my money by not sticking to the diet. We discussed the wasting money thing for a bit ad he had some good points. I told him that I am thinking about not doing TEAM again. He, of course, thought that was a bad idea for me. I explained that I was disappointed he let me whine and pansy out of really doing TEAM this last month and that I need a trainer who can kick my tookus into shape. I cannot do this on my own and I know that. I think I need individual attention and the small group setting doesn't allow me the attention I clearly require (::grin::). I suggested maybe getting a personal session once every two weeks. It will cost the same as TEAM, but I will get the one-on-one care I think I need. We would set out a plan and if I don't stick to it, the next session will be rough! I think I need that kind of motivation. I explained to Zak the Trainer that I wasn't sure if he was the best for me, since I think I need someone who will yell at me and stuff and he's too nice. But that may just be in the TEAM setting. I need someone to say: Get over yourself and do this!!! We discussed the possibility of Kenan, another trainer who can get on you like I might need.

Zak the Trainer ended the conversation by looking me in the eye and saying:

You WILL be at TEAM tomorrow. And I will talk to the other trainers and see who would be a good fit for you. And you WILL come to TEAM Friday. And afterward we are going to sit down and make a plan for you.

He then put his hand out to shake on it.

I hesitated, then shook. I really needed that. I ::heart:: Zak the Trainer. I wonder if he just needed the permission and now will be tougher on me. I now think that maybe he would be good to train with. And, wouldn't you all miss the ZTT stories?!?!

So...I guess I am going tomorrow...and Friday...and will keep you posted on my decisions.

Seriously, and I have said it before, you guys are the reason I am still here. Your support is amazing. I probably wouldn't have gone to the gym tonight without your comments and "likes" and emails. For serious. You rock!

My Stats:

Calories Burned: 338 (Treadmill)/388 (HR Monitor)
Total Miles: 2.18
Total Time: 38:00 (including cool down)
Ending Heart Rate: 134

Worked Out Today.

Calories Burned: 561 (Treadmill)/531 (HR Monitor)
Total Miles: 2.96
Total Time: 57:01 (including cool down)
Ending Heart Rate: 128

This Workout is Dedicated to the Lovely Andrea Richie.

This morning I was in bed, all warm and snuggly under my covers, when my phone alerted me (@ 7:52 am) that there was a text! From none other than the lovely Andrea Richie... We had a fun chat conversation for a bit, when Andrea texts: What active type thing r u doing today?

What immediately goes through my head is: <censored>! I was going to workout out today. But when will I fit it in? Hmm...maybe I won't. No, no I should. And Andrea is even asking me about it. <fist shaking in air>Annn-dreeeee-aaaaaa!<\fist shaking in air> I should really go. It *is* butt-early. I do have time before my first pre-scheduled engagement of the day. Ok! I'LL DO IT! I responded with: Unsure. Maybe gym.

And that's just what I did. I went to the gym and did the treadmill for an hour. Again, inclines for the first 30 minutes, then a long active recovery portion since Marina called and I chatted with her whilst zone 2-ing it. Then I ran for twenty minutes!!!! The breakdown is as follows:

Incline: 2.0; Speed: 4.5 mph; 5 minutes/0.375 miles
Incline: 1.0; Speed: 4.5 mph; 2.5 minutes/0.1875 miles
Incline: 1.0; Speed: 4.2 mph; 2.5 minutes/0.175 miles
Incline: 0.0; Speed: 4.2 mph; 5 minutes/0.35 miles
Incline: 0.0; Speed: 4.0 mph; 5 minutes /0.333... miles
Total Miles: 1.4208333... miles!!!

I will also note that I cranked it up to 5.5 mph for the final 10 seconds... :)

My Stats:

Calories Burned: 592 (Treadmill)/695 (HR Monitor)
Total Miles: 3.59
Total Time: 65:00 (including cool down)
Ending Heart Rate: 146

Great News Sometimes Just Cannot Wait!

Today is not a workout day--so, Erin, why are you posting???

Well, TWO great things happened!

1) I stuck to my diet perfectly for two days in a row. I know I've done it before, but it is still worth celebrating...I secretly hope to break 40 pounds on Monday...

and

2) Mamawags has gotten her (beautiful) butt up at insane hours of the morning and worked out EVERY day this week!!! She also has been sticking to her diet and only drinking water!!! And it has paid off! She's lost THREE pounds! YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY! Kudos to you, Mamawags---even if you are too crazy-busy to update your blog... :)

I am *NOT* Throwing a Temper Tantrum!

So, when you say those words...you typically are. And I conceded that I was when Zak the Trainer mimicked my body posture and I realized that I was running like a six-year-old who was told they'd get no ice cream.

::sigh:: Today was rough. I am still not feeling well from being sick--feeling better, but not well. Also, I could NOT sleep last night. So add those together and you get an exhausted, mopey Erin. And I was. I walked REALLY slow--like 2.5 mph--and held on at high inclines and made no apologies for not doing a single chest press in the allotted two minutes. ::frownie face:: I did try to make an effort at the very end when we ran for a little bit. So my attitude did turn up...just a little late.

My pathetic stats:

Calories Burned: 506 (Treadmill)/420 (HR Monitor)
Total Miles: 2.65
Total Time: 55:58 (including cool down)
Ending Heart Rate: 119

This post is especially shaming after the awesome post I wrote earlier. Oh well! Tomorrow is a new day!!! :)

Awesome Affirmations!

I found these on a crossfit blog who found them from another crossfit blog. Anyways, they rock.

1. I will promise to do my best. My best will vary from day to day, from hour to hour, from minute to minute. But in that minute, I will do the very best that I can.

2. Lactic acid is my friend. The wind is my friend. Anything that opposes me is actually helping me to become stronger. If I had no opposition, I would be weak.

3. If I can run, I run. If I have to walk, I walk. When I am forced to crawl, I crawl. And then I rest and live to fight another day.

4. I fear no man but I fear my workout. If I don’t fear my workout, it isn’t hard enough.

5. I may puke. I may cry. But I will not quit. Ever.

6. I never cheat. There is no honor in cheating. What joy can there be in a victory I did not earn?

7. The workout missed is the opportunity missed. I will not cheat myself of the opportunity to become a better athlete and person.

8. I understand the value of the push-up, the pull-up, the sit-up, the squat, and the deadlift. Just as there are a million ways to make chicken, so too are there a million ways to squat, sit up, pull up, push up, and deadlift.

9. I will give everything I have. And then I will find more within myself.

10. I don’t complain. Complaining is for crybabies. There are 11,232 babies born in the US everyday. I will leave the crying to them and I will soldier on.

11. I will bite off challenges, spit out results, and beg for more. What are you going to do?

Time to Fess Up!

::sigh:: Okaaaaaaay. You caught me. I skipped TEAM yesterday. And I wasn't even going to tell you all. I was going to keep it a secret. In my defense, I was sick and left work early and went home and slept til about 5. I could have gotten up and rushed to TEAM, but I didn't feel up to it. I still didn't feel better this morning, so I stayed home from work and slept more. I am feeling better, thanks! And, I did head to the gym after my restful day today. Since I still had some stomach pain, I took it a little easier. I forced my roommate, Elyse, to come with on a guest pass and do my workout with me! She rocked it like a trooper! Then she went to the pool, so there was a perk for her. ;) We did TEAM-esque inclines for the first 30 minutes, then ran for 15 minutes (<---YES, that's correct!!!!!)!

My Stats:

Calories Burned: 492 (Treadmill)/532 (HR Monitor)
Total Miles: 2.85
Total Time: 52:29 (including cool down)
Ending Heart Rate: 134

As for the running. I went 4.5 mph for 5 minutes (0.375 miles), then 4.2 mph for 5 minutes (0.35 miles), and finished up with 4 mph for 5 minutes (0.33... miles)--for a total of 1.058333... miles!!!! Marine Corp Marathon 10K here I come!!!!